If this scene doesn't work, the whole movie won't

... which sometimes happens to be a case with things I do in my daily life. If something fails, all the other activities which led to it had no sense whatsoever. At the moment I'm at one of these turning points, when the main scene is at hand and if I screw this one up, I might as well not bother... but no pressure!

I spent yesterday trying to figure out how to fly a steadicam... after about 3 hours I managed to balance it properly so well done! After another 3 hours I even got a few decent shots which wouldn't cause the audience to throw up. So all going well - another 2 weeks of training and I will be ready for the world... I hope the world will be ready for me as well.

I've watched some polish films during the last few weeks, starting with independent cinema at Zawiercie Film Festival, then Wojna Polsko- Ruska and Cafe Rozdroze and just a thought I had after watching it all:
We need seriously smile more, be happy, no matter what. Maybe it is a simple message, but I believe it can change a lot. Most of our modern cinema in Poland is so miserable that you wanna drown yourself in a toilet bowl after watching any of those movies. Even All Secrets is way to depressing for me to watch now. My own child.
So get over it then and keep smiling.
Keep smiling when your money is running out and you haven't been able to get a decent employment for more than a year now.
Keep smiling when your film equipment has been gathering dust on the shelves, because nobody wanted to use it.
Keep smiling when the weather is so shit in October, that you haven't seen the sun for 2 weeks.
Keep smiling because you are working on a comedy, and that is all what matters.

The Rise...

... and I won for the third time. I'm happy to tell you that I won the Grand Prix of 2nd Independent Polish Film Festival in Zawiercie.

This time I was actually here to receive the prize and it was a pretty surreal experience. But good times! I met some very nice people and had a great time. It all gave me kind of power and encouraged me to keep sending the movie.

I hope this energy will last.

I will need tons of it soon enough.

I feel... teleported again.

Hello world,

Welcome to my ongoing deja vu, another cycle which will repeat itself somehow within the next year... or maybe even sooner. This is my life, this is what I do:

1) Move to a country
2) Learn a language. If you already speak this country's language carry on to point:
3) Get a mobile number, update CV, print business cards
4) Do a list of all film production companies, which are interesting to you
5) Try to contact all the people, you think might help you achieving point:
6) Get a job...

in the meantime work on a script that will one day become a movie.
and eventually, when you've achieved point 6, and made the movie go back to point 1 but this time pick another place.
If you haven't achieved point 6 go back to point 1 anyway, because what else there is to do there ?

So next stop is... Warsaw. The city of my childhood. Once a cultural and fashionable Paris of the eastern Europe, then a war killzone hell, then a liberated wasteland, then dull and grey communist giant building project and eventually... I have no idea what. Probably chaos, which is not bad, cause out of chaos lots of things can be born, good and bad. I am really hoping for the good ones.

It is to early to say how long I am going to be here. At the moment I feel like I've fallen out of a time space stargate machine. Less than a month ago I was walking with my backpack through tropical jungles of Catalunya, sweating and fighting off wild boars. Now it is full scale winter behind my window, so I'm not trying to look out there too often. On my computer's desktop I have a live webcam feed showing Cuatro Torres in Madrid . I prefer to look there, after all who said sudden changes are easy. They aren't, neither are failed hopes and dreams.